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Monday, March 26, 2007

Monday Blues

Another boring day. I thought of doing some self-study on the Portal Development using RAD but I only went on the application for like 5 minutes. I'm totally demotivated to do anything because when I asked for jobs to do, someone will say that 'I'll assign you the job later' and when I asked for a RAM upgrade, no one bothers to request for it from the support team. So what am I to do????? Sit down and relax until I rot????

God!! It's sickening enough to be overloaded with jobs and it is even more sickening to be doing absolutely nothing day in and out. This has been going on for almost two months now. I'm demotivated to work what more enjoy every single bit of coming here but the only smiley factor is that I'm getting paid. Still getting paid.

I wonder what will happen when they check out on my performance when appraisal month approaches. Oh what the heck, I don't think I'll be here anyway when it comes. The heck with the appraisal craps because I know I'm doing nothing here.

Hmm....

So time and again, I keep on thinking on what I really want to do in life? I've gone through many jobs and experienced a whole lot too but nothing seems to stick by for that long. But by far, I think I enjoyed the when I was working as a teacher for a month. The satisfaction level was almost a 100%. But then, come again certain factor like trying to exceed my limits and capabilities in doing things.

I've always dream big on things. I want to be able to be a somebody. But the road is not easy. I think I'm getting there somehow or rather but how long can I hang on??? I know that I don't really enjoy programming that much. I'm doing this because this is what I've strived my ass for three years in my degree program and six months in the ACCP program. I think that this is the only job that I can get hired as and probably be good at.

And the last time when I turned down the Siebel job so that I could be in this company, I think that's where I made a mistake. I should be brave to take on risks. Probably at that time, I was already sick and tired of taking risks in my job. I thought taking the safest way out will be okay, but nah. It's SO NOT.

I should take risks in things. Just go for it. If I've always wanted to venture into Consulting line in IT, then, I should just go for it.

But the question is now...how do I get into that line of work? I know of friends who are doing them, but I still have no idea on where to begin. Probably the best resort is to get the hell out of here. But the three months notice period is driving me mad. I'm even saving up on my leave days just so that probably I can use them all in one shot soon. Heck, some planning I have.

Oh God...I'm utterly clueless. Please HELPPPPPPPPPPPPP!!

Give me ideas. I'm hungry of them.

but thankfully, my weekends for the past few weeks were awesome and have always been greeeeaaatttt....I'm looking forward for the weekend and it's only just Monday!

Monday Blues

Another boring day. I thought of doing some self-study on the Portal Development using RAD but I only went on the application for like 5 minutes. I'm totally demotivated to do anything because when I asked for jobs to do, someone will say that 'I'll assign you the job later' and when I asked for a RAM upgrade, no one bothers to request for it from the support team. So what am I to do????? Sit down and relax until I rot????

God!! It's sickening enough to be overloaded with jobs and it is even more sickening to be doing absolutely nothing day in and out. This has been going on for almost two months now. I'm demotivated to work what more enjoy every single bit of coming here but the only smiley factor is that I'm getting paid. Still getting paid.

I wonder what will happen when they check out on my performance when appraisal month approaches. Oh what the heck, I don't think I'll be here anyway when it comes. The heck with the appraisal craps because I know I'm doing nothing here.

Hmm....

So time and again, I keep on thinking on what I really want to do in life? I've gone through many jobs and experienced a whole lot too but nothing seems to stick by for that long. But by far, I think I enjoyed the when I was working as a teacher for a month. The satisfaction level was almost a 100%. But then, come again certain factor like trying to exceed my limits and capabilities in doing things.

I've always dream big on things. I want to be able to be a somebody. But the road is not easy. I think I'm getting there somehow or rather but how long can I hang on??? I know that I don't really enjoy programming that much. I'm doing this because this is what I've strived my ass for three years in my degree program and six months in the ACCP program. I think that this is the only job that I can get hired as and probably be good at.

And the last time when I turned down the Siebel job so that I could be in this company, I think that's where I made a mistake. I should be brave to take on risks. Probably at that time, I was already sick and tired of taking risks in my job. I thought taking the safest way out will be okay, but nah. It's SO NOT.

I should take risks in things. Just go for it. If I've always wanted to venture into Consulting line in IT, then, I should just go for it.

But the question is now...how do I get into that line of work? I know of friends who are doing them, but I still have no idea on where to begin. Probably the best resort is to get the hell out of here. But the three months notice period is driving me mad. I'm even saving up on my leave days just so that probably I can use them all in one shot soon. Heck, some planning I have.

Oh God...I'm utterly clueless. Please HELPPPPPPPPPPPPP!!

Give me ideas. I'm hungry of them.

but thankfully, my weekends for the past few weeks were awesome and have always been greeeeaaatttt....I'm looking forward for the weekend and it's only just Monday!

Saturday, March 24, 2007

Heheh...Silly me!

I was chatting with Zue this afternoon and somehow we mentioned about our friend Zal. I was asking Zue if Zal already got a bf or not because I saw some pictures of her with a guy.

So this is what actually happened. Read the excerpt of our chat. Haha!



So you guys get the joke yet???

Okay...silly me for making assumptions that Zal already has a bf. Zal if you are reading this, sorry ek. But if Faizal would have been your bf, I gile suspek sama lu. Ade style gitu mamat tu. Hehe.

And who bloody hell watch that one in a million nonsense shits?? Haha..count me out on that kinda show including AF okay!! Just not ME!! No no no...but still padan muke I for being so bloody ignorant and trying to spark up a very silly speculation. Haha.

So the joke is all on me people!! Haha..

The moral of the story is:
1. Stop being such a big time gossiper
2. Don't be too ignorant about things though you don't want to be watching it but at least pay a lil bit of attention. Haha.

Friday, March 23, 2007

Heheh...Silly me!

I was chatting with Zue this afternoon and somehow we mentioned about our friend Zal. I was asking Zue if Zal already got a bf or not because I saw some pictures of her with a guy.

So this is what actually happened. Read the excerpt of our chat. Haha!



So you guys get the joke yet???

Okay...silly me for making assumptions that Zal already has a bf. Zal if you are reading this, sorry ek. But if Faizal would have been your bf, I gile suspek sama lu. Ade style gitu mamat tu. Hehe.

And who bloody hell watch that one in a million nonsense shits?? Haha..count me out on that kinda show including AF okay!! Just not ME!! No no no...but still padan muke I for being so bloody ignorant and trying to spark up a very silly speculation. Haha.

So the joke is all on me people!! Haha..

The moral of the story is:
1. Stop being such a big time gossiper
2. Don't be too ignorant about things though you don't want to be watching it but at least pay a lil bit of attention. Haha.

Thursday, March 22, 2007

Stuffs I ate yesterday

I've been tagged by Miss Kenzo. I'm suppose to list down 10 things I ate yesterday.I don't think the list will even reach up to 10. Hihi.

Here goes:

1. For breakfast, I had a big one. I didn't eat the night before so I had a combo of nasi goreng + meehon + kuew teow + sambal + some black pepper diced up meat. All for RM1.30. Super cheap and I actually asked the Indon lady twice on how much it really cost. But for today, I had nasi goreng and egg plus some big sambal sotong all for RM3.50. Haiya!! The Indian aunty said ,"RM3.50 yer. Sotong sekarang mahal."

2. I had some internal company training yesterday so I had a morning break. I didn't take any of the kuehs so I just drank a cup of teh panas.

3. For lunch I had a very spicy Nasi Paprik. Damn hot and my whole face flushed, I felt sweat trickling down my forehead and I had to wipe my face with 3 tissues. That was how hot it was. Plus my nose was automatically start to become runny. Eww.Haha

4. I drank some plain water in the office.

5. Got home, was really hungry so I ate some chocolates. I think I ate about two rows of it.

6. I made dinner with my pathetic but super useful rice cooker.Made some modified instant mee goreng with some eggs,cheese and cubes of cold chicken breast.I was really hungry by then so everything must be prepared fast. I also had some plain water. I'm really looking after my sugar and salt intake these days. So, I only drink tea with honey. ;). I used to take a lot of coffee but not anymore now. The very smell of Nescafe makes me feel sick. I can only take 'real coffee' from Starbucks/Coffee Bean/San Francisco.;). Quality really matters when it comes to drinking coffee okay or else don't bother drinking them.

So I ate about 6 stuffs yesterday. Nothing much really. Miss Kenzo, if you would have tagged me the day before, I may have about 10 items to list down. I was eating like a pig on that day. Hehe.

I'm not tagging anyone else because I don't really get the purpose of tagging because as far as I'm concern and understand, tagging is only done when you want to label items. That's how the practise goes in where I'm working. Hehe.

Righto. Back to work. ;)

Stuffs I ate yesterday

I've been tagged by Miss Kenzo. I'm suppose to list down 10 things I ate yesterday.I don't think the list will even reach up to 10. Hihi.

Here goes:

1. For breakfast, I had a big one. I didn't eat the night before so I had a combo of nasi goreng + meehon + kuew teow + sambal + some black pepper diced up meat. All for RM1.30. Super cheap and I actually asked the Indon lady twice on how much it really cost. But for today, I had nasi goreng and egg plus some big sambal sotong all for RM3.50. Haiya!! The Indian aunty said ,"RM3.50 yer. Sotong sekarang mahal."

2. I had some internal company training yesterday so I had a morning break. I didn't take any of the kuehs so I just drank a cup of teh panas.

3. For lunch I had a very spicy Nasi Paprik. Damn hot and my whole face flushed, I felt sweat trickling down my forehead and I had to wipe my face with 3 tissues. That was how hot it was. Plus my nose was automatically start to become runny. Eww.Haha

4. I drank some plain water in the office.

5. Got home, was really hungry so I ate some chocolates. I think I ate about two rows of it.

6. I made dinner with my pathetic but super useful rice cooker.Made some modified instant mee goreng with some eggs,cheese and cubes of cold chicken breast.I was really hungry by then so everything must be prepared fast. I also had some plain water. I'm really looking after my sugar and salt intake these days. So, I only drink tea with honey. ;). I used to take a lot of coffee but not anymore now. The very smell of Nescafe makes me feel sick. I can only take 'real coffee' from Starbucks/Coffee Bean/San Francisco.;). Quality really matters when it comes to drinking coffee okay or else don't bother drinking them.

So I ate about 6 stuffs yesterday. Nothing much really. Miss Kenzo, if you would have tagged me the day before, I may have about 10 items to list down. I was eating like a pig on that day. Hehe.

I'm not tagging anyone else because I don't really get the purpose of tagging because as far as I'm concern and understand, tagging is only done when you want to label items. That's how the practise goes in where I'm working. Hehe.

Righto. Back to work. ;)

Wednesday, March 21, 2007

It's always easier to call it a quit..but I ain't doing that!

Just like the saying "When the going gets tough,the tough gets going "; I'm experiencing just that every single day.

I should learn to expect the worse out of everything or simply best to expect nothing out of everything. It's hard trying to just build a sturdy career and things don't just happen as quickly as you wish it should. It takes a lot of breathe-in and breathe-out motions just to calm myself down so that I can think properly.

I need to go through this one year no matter how difficult it is. It's a commitment that I need to stick with. Thank God it's the only commitment that I have at the moment.

It's always easier to call it a quit..but I ain't doing that!

Just like the saying "When the going gets tough,the tough gets going "; I'm experiencing just that every single day.

I should learn to expect the worse out of everything or simply best to expect nothing out of everything. It's hard trying to just build a sturdy career and things don't just happen as quickly as you wish it should. It takes a lot of breathe-in and breathe-out motions just to calm myself down so that I can think properly.

I need to go through this one year no matter how difficult it is. It's a commitment that I need to stick with. Thank God it's the only commitment that I have at the moment.

Friday, March 16, 2007

Living life like a nomad

Lately I have been staying at many different places on almost every other alternate days.Thus, I'm a nomad. Hehe.

I was crashing over at three different places for the past few nights. The number of places will soon adds up tomorrow when I get back to my other home at Sitiawan. Currently, I think, I may have around 4 major places where I can freely crash overnight/stay at.

There are:
1. My current "love shack"..hehe - somewhere in Damansara
2. My right smack at the city home - Menara Polo
3. My getaway from the city home - somewhere in Sitiawan
4. My friends 'rumah sewa'

Therefore, if you would have rummage through my bag, you'll get to see stuffs like a toothbrush,toothpaste,perfume,powder,lip balm,body lotion,pads and pantiliner,tissues, some medicines,and soon I may shove in some disposable undies too.Hahaha...Those are pretty much the much needed essentials for city-nomads like me.

I should also perhaps have a backpack ready with a towel,some work clothes and casual clothes ready in the car boot. If that's the case, I'll always be on the go at any time at all. How handy is that.

Talking about stuffs in the car, I think I have most of my shoes in the car from one of those beach look-alike slippers to sport shoes,to work shoes and sandals. I just need to get some additional toolbox in the car in case of anything. I may as well just live in the car soon if I stuff the car up with a blanket and pillows.

Yeah, I can live by this way. I love it anyway. The sense of being free and unattached. Oh..no wonder I can never get anywhere in my so-called 'love life'. Hahah. Okay this is so off the topic..;)

Living life like a nomad

Lately I have been staying at many different places on almost every other alternate days.Thus, I'm a nomad. Hehe.

I was crashing over at three different places for the past few nights. The number of places will soon adds up tomorrow when I get back to my other home at Sitiawan. Currently, I think, I may have around 4 major places where I can freely crash overnight/stay at.

There are:
1. My current "love shack"..hehe - somewhere in Damansara
2. My right smack at the city home - Menara Polo
3. My getaway from the city home - somewhere in Sitiawan
4. My friends 'rumah sewa'

Therefore, if you would have rummage through my bag, you'll get to see stuffs like a toothbrush,toothpaste,perfume,powder,lip balm,body lotion,pads and pantiliner,tissues, some medicines,and soon I may shove in some disposable undies too.Hahaha...Those are pretty much the much needed essentials for city-nomads like me.

I should also perhaps have a backpack ready with a towel,some work clothes and casual clothes ready in the car boot. If that's the case, I'll always be on the go at any time at all. How handy is that.

Talking about stuffs in the car, I think I have most of my shoes in the car from one of those beach look-alike slippers to sport shoes,to work shoes and sandals. I just need to get some additional toolbox in the car in case of anything. I may as well just live in the car soon if I stuff the car up with a blanket and pillows.

Yeah, I can live by this way. I love it anyway. The sense of being free and unattached. Oh..no wonder I can never get anywhere in my so-called 'love life'. Hahah. Okay this is so off the topic..;)

Wednesday, March 14, 2007

14th March

List of 'happenings' today:

1. Today is pup's birthday. He turns 53 today. He's balding ,hehe...but I'm telling you, he is so damn young at heart. He's crazy about bikes and rides on one of those big 'daddy' with my mum almost every other week.And, a friend of mine once thought that my dad had a voice of someone in the early 20's. Sounds so young. Hehehe.

...and Kak Ser, if you are reading this, the family may have a small celebration tonight which means that I need to 'run' along home at 5.30pm sharp. ;)

2. In the office today, I learnt to use some of the features in NetBeans and trying and error on some OpenOffice.org filter features. We have yet to make the code works for the pdf to html conversion. We are looking for the right OOO filters. We are uncertain if the filters are the 'thing' needed to be changed. I don't know. We still need to research more on it. Btw, OOO (OpenOffice.org) is really awesome if you are looking to do document conversions provided that you have the OOO installed either at your server/client.

3. I also climbed the chair and helped to hang some 'company' banners at the glass door. Supposedly, by hanging those not-so-colorful banners by the door, we 'can' reduce the amount of sun rays coming into the office and decrease the amount of lights reflecting to our monitor and hence will decrease our sore eyes from further strains. But all those chair climbing was merely a joke. I was the joker of them all because the minute we were to leave for lunch, each banners started to drop and fall. Of course it would when we only stuck them banners with a mere doublesided tape.Duh! What a bunch of geniuses!

And because of that, I think I will be a pretty lousy interior designer.Bah!

4. It's really pouring hard outside there and it's freezing inside here. I'm blogging and obviously not interested in doing what so ever research I was doing earlier today.

Whatever...

14th March

List of 'happenings' today:

1. Today is pup's birthday. He turns 53 today. He's balding ,hehe...but I'm telling you, he is so damn young at heart. He's crazy about bikes and rides on one of those big 'daddy' with my mum almost every other week.And, a friend of mine once thought that my dad had a voice of someone in the early 20's. Sounds so young. Hehehe.

...and Kak Ser, if you are reading this, the family may have a small celebration tonight which means that I need to 'run' along home at 5.30pm sharp. ;)

2. In the office today, I learnt to use some of the features in NetBeans and trying and error on some OpenOffice.org filter features. We have yet to make the code works for the pdf to html conversion. We are looking for the right OOO filters. We are uncertain if the filters are the 'thing' needed to be changed. I don't know. We still need to research more on it. Btw, OOO (OpenOffice.org) is really awesome if you are looking to do document conversions provided that you have the OOO installed either at your server/client.

3. I also climbed the chair and helped to hang some 'company' banners at the glass door. Supposedly, by hanging those not-so-colorful banners by the door, we 'can' reduce the amount of sun rays coming into the office and decrease the amount of lights reflecting to our monitor and hence will decrease our sore eyes from further strains. But all those chair climbing was merely a joke. I was the joker of them all because the minute we were to leave for lunch, each banners started to drop and fall. Of course it would when we only stuck them banners with a mere doublesided tape.Duh! What a bunch of geniuses!

And because of that, I think I will be a pretty lousy interior designer.Bah!

4. It's really pouring hard outside there and it's freezing inside here. I'm blogging and obviously not interested in doing what so ever research I was doing earlier today.

Whatever...

Monday, March 12, 2007

Wedding presents

I've got two weddings to attend this month and they are the first among my friends to step into the matrimonial 'institution'. Yep. I consider marriage as an institution because that's just how big the commitment is.As big as maintaining an institution.

Anyway, I've yet to get presents for these two and it's always easier to dutch the price of the gifts among my other friends. Talking about budgeting and yes, it's the budget issue for now.

Too bad for them who are getting married this year because I can't really spend a fortune for the perfect gift. I can't really afford them and even if I can afford them, I think, I rather spend them on myself. Haha.But, it'll be a different story altogether if I earn so much in a month that I really don't know where and what's best to channel the money into. For now, I rather save and keep them all to myself. ;)

So, I was saying to my friend the other day about how lucky we are because we are not going to get married anytime soon. Because the theory is; if we are to get married when most of our friends are already married with kids, then the chances are, we may get some really awesome wedding gifts from our friends. It will be pretty lame if they still ended up getting us presents like electrical goods for the kitchen or anything similar to 'basic' wedding presents because surely by then I may already have all those stuffs at my home. So the point here, if you are to get married at a later age, where everybody else's are financially stable and all; the chances of you getting a great, expensive and really awesome gifts are HIGHER.

Hence, the rule of thumb here: If you want really great wedding gifts, wait until you are 'older'. But if you are in the situation where you need to get gifts for your friends, dutch the money with your other friends since you are not earning much even to support your other expenses. So what if you are a tad cheapskate. Hehe. As long as you are sincere, whatever goes.

Wedding presents

I've got two weddings to attend this month and they are the first among my friends to step into the matrimonial 'institution'. Yep. I consider marriage as an institution because that's just how big the commitment is.As big as maintaining an institution.

Anyway, I've yet to get presents for these two and it's always easier to dutch the price of the gifts among my other friends. Talking about budgeting and yes, it's the budget issue for now.

Too bad for them who are getting married this year because I can't really spend a fortune for the perfect gift. I can't really afford them and even if I can afford them, I think, I rather spend them on myself. Haha.But, it'll be a different story altogether if I earn so much in a month that I really don't know where and what's best to channel the money into. For now, I rather save and keep them all to myself. ;)

So, I was saying to my friend the other day about how lucky we are because we are not going to get married anytime soon. Because the theory is; if we are to get married when most of our friends are already married with kids, then the chances are, we may get some really awesome wedding gifts from our friends. It will be pretty lame if they still ended up getting us presents like electrical goods for the kitchen or anything similar to 'basic' wedding presents because surely by then I may already have all those stuffs at my home. So the point here, if you are to get married at a later age, where everybody else's are financially stable and all; the chances of you getting a great, expensive and really awesome gifts are HIGHER.

Hence, the rule of thumb here: If you want really great wedding gifts, wait until you are 'older'. But if you are in the situation where you need to get gifts for your friends, dutch the money with your other friends since you are not earning much even to support your other expenses. So what if you are a tad cheapskate. Hehe. As long as you are sincere, whatever goes.

Thursday, March 01, 2007

Hot Ride!!!!

Just one hell of a song from Prodigy which got me pumping real good. Though it is not so much of a help with my droopy eyes. Shit...it sucks to be bored, sleepy and trying to do job that is seemingly and most probably meaningless. I need a new job scope for fuck sake!!!

Anyways, talking about Hot Ride and all....watched Ghost Rider for the second time last night; yes, again!

This time, I didn't miss a second of it. Still a nice show and was worth my RM7 ( ladies night pricing).

Going to be three months down the road and nothing gained!

And...I got another colleague who left yesterday. She's an excellent and experienced programmer.Going to miss some brilliant ones more and soon.

Hot Ride!!!!

Just one hell of a song from Prodigy which got me pumping real good. Though it is not so much of a help with my droopy eyes. Shit...it sucks to be bored, sleepy and trying to do job that is seemingly and most probably meaningless. I need a new job scope for fuck sake!!!

Anyways, talking about Hot Ride and all....watched Ghost Rider for the second time last night; yes, again!

This time, I didn't miss a second of it. Still a nice show and was worth my RM7 ( ladies night pricing).

Going to be three months down the road and nothing gained!

And...I got another colleague who left yesterday. She's an excellent and experienced programmer.Going to miss some brilliant ones more and soon.